Hi
No place to
live, no income… got love to keep me warm.
Tomorrow I get
hospitalized again, don’t know how long I’ll stay there or if I will go there,
it’s like a I want and don’t want at the same time. It’s hard, I need too I
think. It’s like my brain hates really hates my life everything I do and just
want to kill me, but am I suicidal? I have no death wish but I am so tired of
living. Everything is black or white, mostly black… dark as hell.
Anxiety nonstop.
I’m happy
when I get my coffee. Like a addict and a drug, that’s me and my relation to
coffee.
I’m an ex
addict, I took anything and everything except from heroin. Snorted, pills,
smoked… you name it. Now I’m on pills to be able to live a normal life, like I
was before but then it wasn't doctor's prescription but self-medication.
I have a
headache and it feels like my period is on its way, everything is shit. But I’m
warm in my heart, got friends I love and loves me.
Tomorrow is
tomorrow, today is still today. I need to stop worry about the future
(tomorrow).
I’ll be
writing more positive posts soon, I just need to cheer up.
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