Today I bought membership at the gym, 12 months.
I'm starting on Thuesday. May it become a turning point, a new road, and let me choose the right way this time. So I can feel fine again.
It was expensive, but it was worth it. And my mom and her friend are on my side, saying it is probably for the best. Because if I look at my own statistics of minfullness, I'm the closest to a 'not very much anxiety but stil some'-state of mind, when I do workout.
I'm now at mom's friends place, in the middle of the city. Tomorrow I'll go to the pharmacy. I will shop til I drop. Medz and laxatives, runned out of them last night... Whick was a reason to my mood, my routines must not be moved or in any way changed.
Better up tomorrow, sorry for bad posting.
Love.
Showing posts with label medicine/medication. Show all posts
Showing posts with label medicine/medication. Show all posts
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Psychologist meeting & food diary
OPCU - open psychiatric care unit
Psy.D. - Doctor of Psychology/ psychologist
Today I met Anja, my new psychologist, along with another Psy.D. a man in his mid 30's I would guess.
This was such a relief, it went very very well. And this woman, Anja- She was spot on and 110% comitted to her job and me.
We talked about everything, me and Anja. And sometimes the male Psy.D. asked something but mainly he was just taking notes and observed. They said "four ears hears more than two", and that felt very good.
We talked about my past, drugs, personal problems, food, brain, body, family, values... You name it, we had several topics, and every topic was as I said spot on, so my 60 minutes went fast and was easy done gone.
Mom picked me up, in the hall there was a woman crying her soul out, poor woman. I just recall to the past when I see people like that. That was me a few weeks ago.
They said that will have increased dose of Sertrelin (I'm now on 50mg and it's to low and doesn't have the effect We wished for.
Food today then... What about it...
nuts, raspberries and bananas and psylliumseeds and one glass of juice.
Total kcals of those is:
Raspberries 96 kcal
Almonds 300 kcal
Bananas 202 kcal
Juice 100 kcal
Total in/ out: 698 kcal /1500 kcal = -802 kcal
And I'm done with food for today.
I had 1 laxative pill today too, in the morning.
Quite okay day, but not very good.
Psy.D. - Doctor of Psychology/ psychologist
Today I met Anja, my new psychologist, along with another Psy.D. a man in his mid 30's I would guess.
This was such a relief, it went very very well. And this woman, Anja- She was spot on and 110% comitted to her job and me.
We talked about everything, me and Anja. And sometimes the male Psy.D. asked something but mainly he was just taking notes and observed. They said "four ears hears more than two", and that felt very good.
We talked about my past, drugs, personal problems, food, brain, body, family, values... You name it, we had several topics, and every topic was as I said spot on, so my 60 minutes went fast and was easy done gone.
Mom picked me up, in the hall there was a woman crying her soul out, poor woman. I just recall to the past when I see people like that. That was me a few weeks ago.
They said that will have increased dose of Sertrelin (I'm now on 50mg and it's to low and doesn't have the effect We wished for.
Food today then... What about it...
nuts, raspberries and bananas and psylliumseeds and one glass of juice.
Total kcals of those is:
Raspberries 96 kcal
Almonds 300 kcal
Bananas 202 kcal
Juice 100 kcal
Total in/ out: 698 kcal /1500 kcal = -802 kcal
And I'm done with food for today.
I had 1 laxative pill today too, in the morning.
Quite okay day, but not very good.
Monday, June 27, 2011
End of day and everything else
Hey.
I h a t e myself for eating all that I ate earlier today. But I'm okey with it, I'm not panicing or something but I was "sad" (head in my hands and taking heavy breaths of sadness and regrets). It made me realize something though...
I didn't want the food, or more after that. Like my body told me to not eat it, usually it's just my mind telling me not to eat anything, but now both my mind and body told me. I've been feeling sick (for real, close to vomiting) bacause of all the food, since I had it. Now I feel like I can hold myslef and the "semi-fasting"/ low carb diet/ menu for another week more or less.
At work I had only water and one espresso (doppio)
And I made the pizza-guy a Macchiato, he loved it. I told him that in Italy, pizza guys in Aosta drink macchiatos. I'm one awesome (coffe-)barista.
I think I'll try to get some pics of myself/ body. Most for my own cause but I'll share it with you here I think.
But not now, way to tierd.
I saw that I've had readers from Sweden, US and UK, so niiiiice!
I really appriciate you readign my blog, welcome.
Food:
In
I don't want to talk about it but it's not over 1000 kcal
Out
Autoburn 1500
+
Workout/ job 1208
= 2708 kcal
Total: about -2000 kcal.
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I h a t e myself for eating all that I ate earlier today. But I'm okey with it, I'm not panicing or something but I was "sad" (head in my hands and taking heavy breaths of sadness and regrets). It made me realize something though...
I didn't want the food, or more after that. Like my body told me to not eat it, usually it's just my mind telling me not to eat anything, but now both my mind and body told me. I've been feeling sick (for real, close to vomiting) bacause of all the food, since I had it. Now I feel like I can hold myslef and the "semi-fasting"/ low carb diet/ menu for another week more or less.
At work I had only water and one espresso (doppio)
And I made the pizza-guy a Macchiato, he loved it. I told him that in Italy, pizza guys in Aosta drink macchiatos. I'm one awesome (coffe-)barista.
I think I'll try to get some pics of myself/ body. Most for my own cause but I'll share it with you here I think.
But not now, way to tierd.
I saw that I've had readers from Sweden, US and UK, so niiiiice!
I really appriciate you readign my blog, welcome.
Food:
In
I don't want to talk about it but it's not over 1000 kcal
Out
Autoburn 1500
+
Workout/ job 1208
= 2708 kcal
Total: about -2000 kcal.
Don't forget to make my page a favourite, easy peasy! Just press the star in the upper left corner, and then I'll always just be a click away from you. http://bonesforever.blogspot.com/
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