kcal's today (minus)

• 1 Coffee 2 kcal
• 2 Apple 170 kcal
• 100g Leeks 54.8 kcal
• 200g Orange juice (unsweetened) 84 kcal
• 2 tbsp Oil 364 kcal
• 1 Bell pepper (yellow) 54.8 kcal
• 3 tomato (2 medium, 1small) 95 kcal

Total in: 824.6 kcal
Total out: 1295 (swimming in the sea, pw, work), 1500 (autoburn) = 2795 kcal

Total in/out: -1240 (allright!)

Food diary 8/7 + tips

• 1 tomato 35 kcal
• passata with Cayena and sambal oelek 41.6 kcal
• 3 bananas (small/ medium) 270 kcal
• 2 avocado 650 kcal
• 3 bowls (small) of oatmeal and psylliumseeds 330 kcal

Total in: 1326,6
Total out : work 1085, cleaning 70, autoburn (low) 1500 = 2655
Total in/out:  - 1329


(I'm cleaning my room and changed bedding. I'll be standing up most of my time today I've decided - easy burned kcal's. About 7 minutes of walking in 4m/h, burns the calories in a large tomato.)

1 Cherry tomato contains 5 kcal
1 Tomato (small) contains 25 kcal
1 Tomato (medium) contains 35 kcal
1 Tomato (large) contains 50 kcal
1 Beef tomato (large) contains 60 kcal

Psychologist meeting & food diary

OPCU - open psychiatric care unit
Psy.D. - Doctor of Psychology/ psychologist

Today I met Anja, my new psychologist, along with another Psy.D. a man in his mid 30's I would guess.
This was such a relief, it went very very well. And this woman, Anja- She was spot on and 110% comitted to her job and me.

We talked about everything, me and Anja. And sometimes the male Psy.D. asked something but mainly he was just taking notes and observed. They said "four ears hears more than two", and that felt very good.
We talked about my past, drugs, personal problems, food, brain, body, family, values... You name it, we had several topics, and every topic was as I said spot on, so my 60 minutes went fast and was easy done gone.

Mom picked me up, in the hall there was a woman crying her soul out, poor woman. I just recall to the past when I see people like that. That was me a few weeks ago.

They said that will have increased dose of Sertrelin (I'm now on 50mg and it's to low and doesn't have the effect We wished for.


Food today then... What about it...
nuts, raspberries and bananas and psylliumseeds and one glass of juice.

Total kcals of those is:

Raspberries 96 kcal
Almonds 300 kcal
Bananas 202 kcal
Juice 100 kcal
Total in/ out: 698 kcal /1500 kcal = -802 kcal


And I'm done with food for today.
I had 1 laxative pill today too, in the morning.
Quite okay day, but not very good.