Shine

I found a way to get rid of the restlessness I suffer. Instead of run until my lungs bleed, me S, P and our dog go out in the middle of the night like from 1 to 4 in the morning. Just walking and talking. It feels okay, I get so tired but not exhausted.

I’ve been climbing. But the weather has been quite gray with some rain here and there and on and off for like a week or more. But today sun shines bright, and when sun shine - I shine... So I and S and another friend are going out bouldering. I Will bring coffee, I’m a bit tired I have to say. 

I’ve been climbing during the days and out in a zombie town all night(s). This is a huge college city, and now during summer all students have gone home so it’s like a ghost town. It's so nice and calm, like it should be.

And speaking of ghosts, have you seen the French TV-series Les Revenants? It’s really good. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2521668/

On saturday I'll go go to my parents, celebrating dad's and my bithday, a bit late. I really don't bother being celebrated. But they do, so if it makes them happy, so be it.

This picture of me is from this last past winter when I was hospitalized, I look the same but my mind is so much clrearer. Such a different!

At rest burns about 1500 kcal / day... more info

My work - model. Through agencies I get booked, for what ever the clients want. (I don't do fur or Gaga meat-dress-ish). And I have a second job too, waitress... and that's where I've been now this evening.

Holy virgin mother Mary and her son jesus christ and everyone else! Overbooked, full house! Running around for 5½ h, the sweat was dripping from my forehead, (for real). But I made it, and that's a work out according to me... (if you don't belive me... try it out and you'll change your mind) My whole body aches, like I've been at a full bodypump session.

I still haven't had any food more than the tomato and apple. So I'll do a quick calc. of in/out kcal/ today.
And today I'll acctually star adding normal/ by it self- kcal burn, which is [NOTICE!]: An adult at rest burns about 1500 kcal / day, normal activities, usually about 2000-3000 kcal / day. And witch (kcal) food I rounding up and rounding down with (kcal) training. So I'll take the lowest (1500) even if I've been out earlier today, and I'll also add work tonight, which I counter up to -1546.


In: 72
Out: 3046

Total: -2974 kcal.

I feel good when I starve, it's not only about my head wants me to be thin. It's like a reward to feel emptiness. It's a self injury and it's opposit at the same time, I don't feel bad, thats one thing for sure. Let me starve and I'll give you a smile.

Bye for now readers, you make my day!

Work out tips

Stand up, I've been standing up since I got connected to internet (it's now at 2h 56min 32sec) tighten your but, push it in and tighten you core, suck it in. Free and easy. Stand up while surfing online.
And be and stretched in your back and neck, feet distance shall be like right under your shoulders, and soften up you knees.

Very well, bye.