Hey, S was about to post for me yesterday, but forgot.Just got a letter from customs department saying I’ve breaking the contraband law. A letter from an unknown something/someone in the Netherlands, the letter contained three syringes and needles, containing some kind of clear liquid… WTF!?I had an anxiety attack and some level of panic attack. I called my mom and she told me it’s quite common and we didn’t have any lock on our postbox and the house next to us was a deep shitty junkie neighborhood and the person who had our flat before us sold drugs, and sometimes at night/ evening customers came for buying drugs.So probably we have the answer to what and where this mess came from. It says it was taken and opened by custom department December 19th 2011, that’s a year ago. What took so long(?) I ask myself.
My new BFF is the ball quilt, it’s like a ball pit but a bit smaller balls inside a quilt.And it makes anxiety and ocd symptoms go away a bit. You feel where your body is, and where it starts and ends. I normally lay under this ball pit quilt 30 to 45 sometimes an hour, but it actually helps.
My conversation terapheut/ psychologist Wivian, came to visit me at my temporary home, section 84 at the psychiatric clinic. We talked a bit, she was on her way home, so not for very long.
Now I’m home with S and E and we have some friends over. Sad I have to go back to 84, but necessary. And definitely tonight after this stupid letter.
Okay, that’s it for now.
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