Before I got fucked

Christ!

Like teasing, lovegame. I got fucked by anorexia before I got kissed today. Tomorrow we'll kiss, only. No one is getting fucked, mor than Lard.
I feel it, stupid me eating all that fucking food earlier! Baloon-belly. And I'll vry if the scale shows 57 or more tomorrow, so that's why I'm thinking of maybe not weight myself tomorrow. AH I¨m so stupid. I'm always thinking; "it's better if I eat ALL the food now, so there's no more to eat later" because we all know that if there's no food to eat, you simply don't eat.I feel fat, I have my period (!!!) so disgusting, what the fuck... I'm fat enought to carry a baby, and go through a healthy pregnancy...uhhhhg.

Nope, no more period, I'll skip it next month (by being thin enough to not have my period). I h a t e  fat, I really hate it. On myself, on others I don't care. I envy people who are normal or fat and are ok with it. But just the thought of being normal freaks me out.

Pills kickin in, my eyeslids shutting my eyes in shorter and shorter frequences.

Good night my lovers and mistresses. You and me again, tomorrow, to continue this dirty little huggermugger at bones forever. I feel like Hannah Montana with this schitzo-life.