My belly is hurting so much. It's like someone is pulling my stomach inside out.
I've got angioedema during the night and it hurts so much, such a disgusting feeling. It has shrunk down a bit now... but my right hand was hughe, my feets were like globes and my face was dry, itchy and swollen.
Probably got it from the medicin I recived to treat candida, which I got from something which I got from something which I got from anorexia... But I don't know, might be something else likewise.
I was very sad during the night, even my dreams are sad and depressed (I'm melancholic in my dreams) When I awoke, I was very sad, upset and very disturbed over that I forgot to turn off the computer which was located beside my head on the table. So that my computer injected radiation, heat and electricity in me throughout all the night. I hate heat, I want to freeze, shake out of cold. What I do-when I hate myself the most, because it's a like a bitter-sweet feeling which comes over me, I take this really really cold shower to punish myself or just to avoid other stuf I do not want to do.
[woow, I almost fainted and now I have theese red rashes on my body, like hives, but Candia-fied. Now I'm okey again.]
To eat I've had the 65kcal porridge and a capsule. I'll make myself some coffe soon. But first watcj a movie, or re--watch Hungover I, so that I can be all in focus on Hungover II.
[AH! it happens again, all black infront of my eyes and I see stars, feel like vomiting, nasty]
Got to go before I puke al over my computer.
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