Turbulent weekend

Today I’m really uncomfortable with everything. I don’t know exactly know what’s wrong but something is. Anxiety is one of my main issues today.

I’ll tell you about my weekend at my parents.

Friday evening around 6 pm I took off. A train ride that usually takes 1 ½ hours, this time took an extra hour. And I was so close to panic. I was alone with tons of strangers who were dull and grumpy.

When I arrived, mom had made me dinner, I could control it and I didn’t over-eat. Which is what I usually do when I’m stressed up. Either that or I starve.

Saturday morning. Woke up with anxiety, but I had a real good sleep, thou I was kind of cold all night.

Me and mom went for a walk at the beach, walked all beach and back. Then we took the car out to the wood to find us some mushrooms, found quite much but then…. My brother had been in a car accident. And was in the ambulance towards the ER, anxiety hit me even harder now.

We went back home to pick up daddy, and then we were off. 

Luckily he was all right when we came to the ER. His friend was also okey. And the older couple called mom and told her they were fine and wondered how everything was with my brother and his friend, and us. 

Sunday, woke up early. I had avocado and bean-pesto for breakfast. And I also had coffee, even if I’m suffering from ulcers.  We went to my hometown, where I grew up. First I went to the graveyard, to light a candle for our relatives and friends. After that I visited my cousin, (she’s alive, we have now left the graveyard) and we talked about everything between heaven and hell. Then I went to grandma’s, had dinner and then we went back home. Me and granny talked about my illness and all that comes with it and we talked about funny things too of course. She’s so nice.

My train ride back home was good. And S (my boyfriend and fiancé) cuddled up and kissed my neck from behind the second I walked of the train, I was about to punch that bastard douche. But then he whispered “heeey my love, I’ve missed you” and I turned around and got the best hug and kiss.

Today Monday, I’ll write about later. I have headache again. But I had a great bath really warm and comfy. It’s a really boring Monday actually.