Is this for real?
Is it acctually working?
First of all, I'm blank... with irritation. But I'm not sad, not even when I try to be, (just to see if it's maybe some kind of placebo-effect). I don't feel a shit compared to the previous weekend and yesterday. But I still feel.. bad, sad.... but very neutral.
I had a baked potato today, with chopped tomato, corn, ginger, garlic and cucumber (2dl). Potato- a medium sized, but I didn't eat all of it. (only clean and pure products, no salt, pepper or oil) Now I'm thinking and calculating in my head, I can feel that there is something who's screaming inside but... well I'm like inside a baloon, I can see and hear what's happening on the other side, and that's all ... it's all very frustrating and wierd.
Ah, i don't know what I feel. ar least I'm not crying and gasping for breath anymore.
I feel like it's way too soon for any effect? I can also feel that this will bring me hell on earth but yet joy.
I hope it's worth it. I still have dark thougths though.
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