Increases metabolism & reduces fat stores

Instead of bingeing and eating myself to death, I had two laxative pills and a bike ride on the beach, I'm pretty happy with that.


 I was lying on my spike strip yesterday and last night with, to increase blood circulation to skin and fatty tissue. I'm much thinner now than last time so the tags, pressed on the bones and my thin skin. But it was nice, and I was relaxed and was able to sleep(!) quite well. Just went up 2 times ( one time for peeing and second for feeling sick, prob from all the food I had) 

I want to go after my own scale, otherwise I might break my routines, which can be disastrous.

I rather fool myself to belive (on my scale shows more than the hospital) that I weigh more than I do, than to acctually be bigger than I think I am.


LaterMust take a long beachwalk when my laxative stomach calmed down. Don't have as much energy in my body, get exhausted from nothing, ridiculous.Tomorrow morning says doctor and take new samples. Samples will be sent to the clinic, the dietitian, psychologist and physician. Ugh, they probably want to weigh me on the monsterscale, won't watch and I will ask them to be quiet about it. Then I went to the cache, and had two capsules. One that increases metabolism, and one that reduces fat stores and increase muscle mass (If you're not eating enough, there is nothing you can build muscle with, therefore I feel that it's ok to take this capsule, which also reduces fat stores.) I will not build no muscles, only to be slim and slender. Now I only drink water, lots of water.  It bubbles in my stomach almost time for cleanup, it'll be nice with the lovely feeling of emptiness. Woke up at 8 a.m. Went up to the bathroom, looked contemptuously on the importance scale (It's a love-hate thing). Will not weigh myself until I can see a result, perhaps for my birthday (sunday), as a present from myself.